Monday, February 28, 2011


Sometimes I feel like he couldn't care less about me. I know he probably doesn't mean to come across that way but that is exactly how I feel at times. Some days he pays no attention to me hardly at all and I feel like a damn ghost in the house or something. It's like I don't even exist. It really distresses me and makes that depressed feeling come over me that I was glad to be rid of for so long. He just usually seems more concerned with the Playstation 2 or band related stuff. I don't like feeling like I don't matter. But I know what it would be if I said anything, it would more than likely cause an argument and it would be twisted around in some way to make ME feel guilty for feeling like I do.

I think he has band practice tonight, I'll probably just go home and seclude myself in our room or something. Go straight to sleep hell I don't know. He'll probably go to practice just to collaborate with Jamie and Shawn Wednesday which is his birthday. I think Bill has to work that day.

It'll be alright I guess. Everything isn't always sunshine and roses. Everybody has their bad days. It'll pass.